A perfect day if only.........

.....Jacob was here and we were all out walking through the woods, enjoying the freedom, the sunshine, the open space and the absolute quiet.

I can hardly believe really how the dynamic has changed at home since Jacob has been missing.

It's just one dog taken out of the equation, and there are 3 others left here, but as I said to Catherine my friend today, things just feel really strange, like a loss surrounds us, but one where you cannot grieve.

I guess that is because right now, we have no idea where Jacob is, is he alive, out there surviving the elements or sitting happily on someone elses sofa being fed toast and cake ?

I wish more than anything I knew the answer to that question, I really do.

The not knowing is what hurts more than anything else, we cannot ever move forward without not knowing, how can we ?

One thing that keeps us alert, and positive is the fact that 10 weeks into their search for Sky, Ffion and Tim are still upbeat (or as best they can be on this rollercoaster ride) and they remain pretty positive they can bring Sky home.

Their efforts and sightings this far into the dog lost saga can only spur us on knowing Sky is out there, waiting on being found.

10 weeks missing and he's beaten the weather and the lack of food.

If anyone should be rewarded for their love and efforts to bring their dog home, it has to be them.

Today for us started off with a call from a local builder, he had seen a flyer we'd dropped through through his door from yesterdays mission, and had thought he saw a dog similar to Jacob running at speed across fields near Wimbish on Tuesday or Wednesday of this week.

Colours matched, rough type of dog matched, but as he was seeing from the car, at a distance, obviously we cannot be 100% sure it actually was him.

The things that worried us was would Jacob still be able to be running at 'speed' across a huge field. Surely energy levels would now be suitably low, unless he was being fed regularly.

Of course that is a possibility by now, but we are not sure.

I guess it could have been Jacob seen in the midst of capturing his dinner, and that would make sense of the speed, or failing that maybe what this man saw (as he saw a few cars parked nearby) was hare coursing in action ?

All the same, we deployed our fab helpers into action, and headed out to comb the area for signs, knowing that on route we'd leave the scent of both us and our dogs around in case it would draw him out of his hidey hole for someone to see.

Regardless if this builder had seen Jacob the walkabout and scenting would be a good exercise done now the snow was gone.

I have not long come back with Clu, and Jon and the menfolk are now on the way home too having gone through a huge wood near Carver Barracks that they wanted to rule out again.

I guess as with all of the leads we have, we have to duly rule them out, and it's just so frustrating that the pieces of the jigsaw seem to always come a few days too late to be fresh, and to get our adrenaline pumping in the sheer thought you just might be there at the same time he is.

Still, it's put fresh scent down today, and if he is in the area still, then between 6 of us, we've covered a good 4 points of it today.

Fingers crossed something good can come it it, I hate the thought of another week being nearly here, and another 'anniversary' of him being missing (4 weeks) coming up.

I keep thinking if I pinch myself, this nightmare will be over, and i'll wake up and laugh to myself as I see Jacob curled up on the end of the bed grunting with content. Ahhh if only eh !